Rants of unstable individuals

4/11/2005

I can hear an echo.. echo.. echo

So we don't frequent this place much any more... Sure I still start here every time I go out into the bloggers universe that I have built into my everyday life. But the whole takes like a week to post by E-Mail thing kinda gets on my nerves. It's like sending a letter in reply to and IM.
I went to my Poly test last week.. confessed every thing ever did.. and maybe even a few things I didn't do just to cover all my bases. I took a little over and hour and a half to recount every out of place detail in my life.

They where all those questions that you never thought you'd be asked in your whole life, at least not by anyone you didn't know for at least longer than the past hour.

The examiner explained all the equipment and hooked me in to the gear got all ready to go and we where off to the races... no really. He started simple like Is this the USA? Or is you name you correct name? Stuff like that. While after about three minutes in I started feeling the two straps they put around your chest to measure your breathing rate and a few other things. It felt like it was getting tighter or something and I started breathing harder. He looks up and says, "You're breathing a little eradicly you'll need to calm down.. if you can't I'll have to assume you're being deviant and we'll have to stop." Great just great we didn't even get started and I'm already goanna get kicked out for being a basket case about this whole poly thing, that or they'll think I'm a liar. So we had to stop and start over after a few minutes of calming down. The whole time I felt like my heart was beating out of my chest like in one of those corny cartoons, hands where sweating mike mad, and the blood pressure cuff was turning my arm the most wonderful shade of blue/purple.
Then it was done.. he said I'll give my report to the back ground investigator and thank you for coming. Do you have any questions?
I couldn't resist asking how I did.. I knew the answer already. He said I can't tell you that without making a full report about it and truing it into the investigator. But.... (I thought O' God there's a but.. here it comes)
He said but if I would have had an answer that I thought you we being untruthful about I would have asked if there was any other way to ask it or if you had anything more to tell me about it.
Thank God it was a good but not a bad but. So I asked how long it was going to take to get the report all finalized and submitted? He said maybe by Friday. So now it's back to waiting blindly for the next step.. when and where ever it may be.